Monthly reads: January 2022

 


Looking at the books I read this month, I think 2022 will be a great year. There wasn't a single bad book this month, and there even were quite a few ones I really loved! Really nice...but on the other hand, things could only get worse from here on, haha.

The Sacred Book of the Werewolf (Victor Pelevin)

I mostly picked this up because I was going through the Guardian's 1000 books list and the title sounded sort of intriguing. Also, I haven't read that many books by Russian authors yet, so...I bought it, decided to take a short peek into it...and finished it a few days later because it was just so good. I'm not sure what kind of book I expected, but anyway, it defied my expectations. I don't know if that makes any sense, haha. Well, but...first off, I liked the main character A Hu-Li's way of telling us her story, I liked the (pop)cultural references and I also really enjoyed the often lenghty philosophical discussions between the characters. I'm not sure if I really understood everything our werefox storyteller tried to explain to her lover Alexander and thus also to us readers, but nevertheless, it was extremely intriguing! Also, I really couldn't predict where this would be going, but the end was really satisfactory, if a bit sad. Anyway, I really recommend this. I'm not sure if it's a book everyone should read, because I've got a slight problem with saying things like that, but I'll say that much: it's definitely a book worth reading.

Bei Anbruch der Nacht (Kazuo Ishiguro)

Looking back I definitely should have picked another book to start this month's Ishiguro reading spree because it's probably not his best work. On the other hand, it still motivated me to start reading one of his novels right afterwards, so it wasn't actually that bad. Eh, but whatever. This book is a collection of short stories, each one of them being centered around a musician or having some other connection to the theme of music in general. I admit that I didn't really like the stories in the beginning – the first one was alright, but there were some parts in the translation which struck me as odd (yeah, well, I know I'm not the one to complain, looking at how much my English sucks...and yet I'm writing an english blog, oh the irony) and the second story was outright stupid. Wanting to slap all three protagonists throughout the entire story isn't very enjoyable, thank you very much. Well, but it got a lot better after that. My favourite was the title story (I think the original title of both was Nocturnes, which fits a lot better than the german one because of the double meaning), though all but the second one had their strong moments. Not something I will necessarily read again anytime soon, but still better than expected.

Damals in Nagasaki (Kazuo Ishiguro)

Onwards to his first novel...was what I thought after finishing the short stories. And whoa, this was really good, especially since this was his first novel! I have to admit that I knew beforehand that the narrator of the story, Etsuko, wouldn't be a 100% reliable narrator. But I'm sure I would've noticed it at some point. I absolutely don't understand how people could take her narration at face value! First off, the story is set right after WWII in Nagasaki, and I don't think we could expect the memories of a most likely traumatised woman to be entirely accurate. Especially not if she recalls those memories many years later. Second, there were some scenes where the narration was clearly odd – like when Mariko, the daughter of her friend Sachiko, kept mentioning a piece of string Etsuko had on her person and that reference seemed to make no sense at all! There were multiple scenes like that, but what really gave it away was one scene near the end, where Etsuko suddenly mentioned that 'we could come back' instead of 'you could come back', supposedly referring to Mariko and her mother. Granted, it was just a small fleeting moment, a small error...but at that very moment everything fell into place and made so much more sense. Other details about some characters like Etsuko's husband Jiro aren't mentioned again, so I'm not entirely sure about them, but...at this point there couldn't really be any doubt about who Sachiko and especially Mariko really were. Phew. I really loved this one and I just have to re-read it at some point.

Der Maler der fließenden Welt (Kazuo Ishiguro)

I went on to his next novel right away (maybe I should just keep on reading them in order of publishing, even though there isn't a connection between any of them), and I enjoyed this one just as much as the previous one. The unreliable narrator seems to be a recurring theme in the author's works, and at least this one isn't an exception. Saying the most important things through omissions is a common theme of Japanese literature (and possibly even a defining Japanese characteristic in general), and so this fits the theme and setting of the novel very well. I feel like the narrator does actually want to come to terms with his problematic past – he worked for the government during the war, e.g. creating propagandistic art to support the war effort – but he also can't quite let go of the old times. His struggle was obvious throughout the book. And yes, I think the things he didn't say were the ones that told the most. I also liked how some scenes mirrored each other, like the recurring theme of the narrator noticing a burning smell at especially crucial points of the story – and mostly the thing about his father and later his arts sensei trying to take away his most prized paintings. There is just one thing I never quite understood, and that's the question whether the narrator really believed in the politics of wartime Japan or if he just went along with everything. Seeing how quickly he was ready to let go of some points I would be inclined to believe he wasn't really into it after all. But maybe that's just what he wanted us readers to believe. However, I don't think not knowing a final answer doesn't take anything away from the experience of reading this book.

Was vom Tage übrigblieb (Kazuo Ishiguro)

(Just a little warning right at the beginning, this will be pretty incoherent because I'm still not even sure what I think about this book. Which is – I guess – a good sign in itself?)

Uh, well. I sort of expected it, but...this is probably Ishiguro's most famous and critically acclaimed book, and yet... Yet I could bring myself to like or enjoy it as much as the former two books. Let's start with the good things though: the setting was a nice change of scenery, and the writing style evoked a vivid picture of Britain in the 50s before my inner eye just as well as the other books did for post-war Japan. I also didn't mind the slow way of storytelling, and the fact that nothing much happened but I still wanted to read on and on. However, there was one big problem...which would be the main character. I just couldn't bring myself to like Stevens. He's just not someone I would like to know, and at times it was also pretty difficult to acknowledge his view on some things. Maybe that's the point, though – I have to admit that it was pretty intriguing to listen to this guy's story and clearly seeing all those things he never even considered to be true. Ultimately, he deceived himself thoughout his entire life, staying away from anything he considered unneccessary for his job as a butler. My main problem was his ignorance of his master's antisemitic beliefs and collaboration with the Nazis. He just pretended not to care – I wonder if that was just what he told himself, because a few chapters earlier he went on about how a butler can only be truly considered a great butler if he chooses a truly great master to serve. Well, and if by chance he picked the wrong master, then he basically had to pretend not to care, or else he would have to admit that he too failed to become truly great.

Only near the very end of the book he suddenly felt human to me. And that was when he was talking to another guy, suddenly realising that he gave everything to others (well, he did give up the years of his life to serve an ultimately probably unworthy master, and he also missed the opportunity to get the woman he loved, so that's about right) so that nothing is left to him in the end. Honestly, I think that other guy never existed though and the other man was just a part of himself, because I just can't see him admitting failure to anyone else. I might be wrong, though. (I'm also pretty sure that the passage about 'the rest of life being empty', which was supposedly from Miss Kenton's letter was in fact a figment of Stevens' inner thoughts. She didn't seem to recognise that passage at all, so I'd say this was rather his subconscious talking there.)

As a final thought, I don't think this book could be considered a love story at all. (The german publisher marketed it as such, I don't know if it was the same for English editions.) To me it felt like a pretty sad story of an ultimately failed life without much meaning, and the story of a man desperately trying to fill that void while with his own convictions without realising that life pretty much passed him by. So, not exactly a pleasant read, but I think I know why it is considered a good book after all.

The Day That Never Comes (Caimh McDonnell)

I wasn't too sure whether I'd like this as much as the first book. But in the end, it was of course just as awesome. I liked the fact how both threads of the story – the disappearance of Bunny and the gruesome murder cases plus the connected public uprising – were connected in the end. And it was also pretty evil how we were almost lead to believe that Bunny was indeed connected to the killings in some way. Well, so the thrilling part was great already, but that's not all there is to this book series. There's also lots of funny stuff and the very lovable weirdo characters. Seriously, during this book I got to love Phil even more and that's why I also really enjoyed the ending. Guess I'm off to the next book right away. Maybe I should take a break and read the prequel first, though. Quite the hard decision, but I'm sure I'll enjoy both books anyway.

Loch Down Abbey (Beth Cowan-Erskine)

What an odd yet endearing book. I expected it to be a classical crime novel with lots of rich people becoming suspects in a murder case while being confined to their villa for whatever reason. Well, and confined they were, due to a mysterious illness spreading around like wildfire. Hmm, I think I heard of something similar in real life not too long ago... But anyway, even though there was a murder it wasn't an actual crime novel. It was more of a cross between a character study of rich and very, very idle people...and a comedy story a la PG Wodehouse. Some scenes were downright funny and even though most of the protagonists were actually right pricks it was a great experience to read about their misadventures. They had to learn to live without their servants because almost all of them fell ill after a while – can you even imagine that? The absolutele horror! My favourite scene was the one where all the family member had to look for hidden doors in the whole manor because the children were missing and giggling could be heard from behind the walls. I also tremendously enjoyed some of the revelations near the end. And, well, the very end came as a surprise too. I liked the part after the final chapter where we learned about the further lives of our protagonists. I assume that most of them might be happier than they were during their time as rich idlers, I guess. Anyway, a nice read, even though it wasn't quite what it said on the package. That's not the book's fault, though.

Wanderungen durch Thüringen (Ludwig Bechstein)

I mostly read this right before bedtime because it was so relaxing, haha. Oh, and because it's about the region where I was born, so it was quite fun. Though I have to admit that I've never even heard of some of the places they visited during their hike. But the chapter about my hometown was pretty funny, mainly so because they apparently couldn't visit most of its many attractions because of the bad weather. Well, that's a way to cop out of having to write stuff too, I guess. Definitely something I need to take note of for my own writings, I'd say. ;)

Heaven Official's Blessing vol. 1 (Mo Xiang Tong Xiu)

I don't know if I should put this rather on my anime blog, but it is a novel and I'm counting it towards my annual reading goals, so... Anyway, I watched the donghua adaptation last year and enjoyed it quite a bit – just like it was with the other works of the author. So it's not surprising that the announcement of English-language releases of her novels made me really happy – I'd always wanted to read the originals! Heaven Official's Blessing aka Tian Guan Ci Fu was the first one I picked up because I wanted to refresh my memory of that story first. And it was totally worth it, because it's highly enjoyable read. If it weren't for the nice visuals of the donghua, I would definitely prefer the written version anyway. By the way, this volume covers the first series of the donghua, so there wasn't actually any new content. But like I said, it was about time to refresh my memory. I can never quite remember the details of most shows I watched...

Monthly reads: December 2021

 


Welcome to the New Year...as it's already 2022 when I'm posting this. But I still need to talk about December's reads, so...let's skip back to the past for a moment, right?

Sherlock Holmes and the Christmas Demon (James Lovegrove)

Well...I'm starting to think that I would be better off by staying away from all those very popular Holmes pastiches. I rarely ever like them. Just like this one: it's not that I disliked it per se, but it was just too long and boring! Okay, to be fair: the original Holmes novels aren't my cup of tea either. Arthur Conan Doyle is a genius when it comes to short stories and that's just how Holmes stories are at their best. It's the same for pastiches. I think I would have enjoyed the story about a creature from the mythology of Yorkshire as a short story, but this book just didn't do it for me. I was mostly pretty bored, to be honest. Holmes also felt slightly out of character sometimes, and that clinched it for me. Also, the ending was way too cutesy and didn't fit the tone of the rest of the story. (Though I'm not one to talk, having written multiple sappy Christmas fanfictions about The Thick of It. Cough, cough.)

Trump's Christmas Carol (Watt T. Dickens)

Nice pun with the author's name, I see what you did there! In fact the book was written by Lucien Young, and I usually enjoy his fun little parody stories a lot. I did enjoy that one, too. But I was sceptical. I mean, Trump as Ebenezer Scrooge...I see the similarities and it's actually a great fit. But as we probably all know: Scrooge actually becomes a nice person in the end of A Christmas Carol. Can you see Trump becoming nice? I couldn't. So I was really curious about how the end of this book would be like. And what should I say, it was awesome. Exactly what I'd expect to happen with the real Trump. Highly enjoyable and I might read this again next Christmas.

A Christmas Carol (Charles Dickens)

Can't very well read a parody version without reading the original thing, right? I actually meant to do that last year already, but I couldn't find the motivation. So, this year it finally happened and well, it's a good read. It's making me a bit sad though, so I'm not sure whether I'd want to read it again next year. I will come back to it though, if only to refresh my memory when watching one of the countless adaptions.

A Very Murderous Christmas/Murder in Midwinter (various authors)

I used to love those Christmas crime anthologies, but they're always a little hit-and-miss. I already knew a few of the stories contained in these two books, I didn't like some of the other ones...and some were quite enjoyable. The best thing was that I discovered the Rumpole stories through them. I need to look into those, they seem to be right up my alley.

Quarantine Comix (Rachael Smith)

One of those books I bought because of, er, the cover blurb...or to be more specific, one of the people who recommended it. Sometimes I'm just like that. I didn't have to regret it though, as I enjoyed this collection of comics quite a bit. Well, of course the topic of Covid, lockdowns and quarantines isn't an especially fun one, so it wasn't the most relaxed read. But even though my situation is quite different I could relate to many of the themes very well, like the struggle with mental health and loneliness.

Die Schatzinsel (Robert Louis Stevenson)

I meant to read the classics in the original English version whenever possible, but...I had bought the German translation already, so I just read that one in this case. Apparently the translation was also pretty good, because I enjoyed the book tremendously! I might even want to re-read it at some point, which happens rarely enough for me. My sort-of favourite character was Ben Gunn because he was both pretty funny and also quite important for the story. Ah, I just like reading about adventures like that, and if they are as immersive as Treasure Island it's even more fun!

Animal Farm (George Orwell)

I watched a film adaption many years ago, but I didn't really get it back then. For example, I didn't even know that the story was supposed to be an allegory about Stalin and the Soviet Union. But once you know that this isn't just a story about farm animals (and frankly, any adult should notice that – my excuse is that I was about 13 when I watched the film, and I absolutely didn't care about politics back then), then reading certain scenes just make the reader realise that he can probably guess very well what's going to happen next. And even though it was a shocking book too it's a much easier read than 1984. So, even if someone doesn't feel up to the challenge of 1984: Animal Farm is almost as good, though in a different way. Reading both is the best option anyway. I'm glad I did.

1984 (George Orwell)

I don't even begin to think that I will actually write something that will make the slightest bit of sense about this book. And I guess everything worth mentioning has been said already anyway. So, just this much: it's shocking to see how many of the things mentioned in this book have either become reality, are about to become reality...or at least don't feel like they would be impossible in today's world. And really, everyone should read this book, even if it surely isn't an easy read. Especially the later chapters were just painful, but...it's just worth it and it might even change the reader's view on our world, society and politics.

The Shop Window Murders (Vernon Loder)

Started off pretty well, but became sort of boring later on. I'm all for lots of talking and gathering clues and evidence, but the police procedures described in this book was too much even for me. Also, I ultimately didn't really care about any of the characters. I just started to dislike Inspector Devenish at some point. And I don't even know why, but he started to annoy me? Well, it just wasn't to be, I guess. Oh, and...while this might be a nice golden age crime story it absolutely isn't Christmassy, no matter what the blurb on Amazon might say....

UK Politics Annual Update 2021 (Nick Gallop)

Eh, well, politics, I guess. It was an interesting read yet again, like all books from this series. But I personally don't think I need the yearly update anymore. By now I'm closely following the daily UK politics anyway, so there's no need for me to do that. The books were really useful to catch up on last year's events though!

Doctor Who: Twelve Doctors of Christmas (audiobook, various authors)

I started listening to these twelve stories last year, and then sort of lost interest and/or seasonal motivation. That doesn't mean the stories were bad, but...well, let's just say it was my fault. This year I picked it up again and getting through the stories was really easy...and also really pleasant, as I enjoyed almost all of them! Most were even properly Christmas-themed (I was wondering a bit about Sontar's Little Helpers and the one set in a hospital...they were less seasonal than the others, but still nice) and meeting the Doctor in all of his incarnations again is always a great thing, isn't it? As for why I picked up the audiobook version instead of the regular book, well...I noticed that the stories were read by people who actually played characters in the series at some point and when I saw that Chris Addison was among them, well... It just was a really easy decision, haha. And the best thing is, he even read one of my favourite stories of the bunch: the very last one with the 12th Doctor. Twelve is the best Doctor anyway. No, I won't debate this...but I'll of course accept different opinions ;)

Monthly reads: November 2021

 


Another month, another post, another pile of books. I didn't think I read this much, actually. Felt a lot less, but I had a strong few days right at the end of November. Guess I need to get out the Christmas reads now, huh?

British Politics: The Basics (Bill Jones)

A pretty good book if you want to learn more about, well, the basics of Britain's politics and the peculiarities of the political system. I think I did learn a few things I didn't know yet! However, I didn't like that sometimes the author's personal opinion about certain things was showing through – and I feel like I wouldn't have agreed with his political views. I might be wrong about this, though, Another point were some minor errors, both in regards to spelling (some parts didn't make any sense until I noticed that a word was missing) and also – to a smaller extent – content-wise. I remember noticing a mistake in a passage about Henry VIII, for example. And well, I can't say whether there was anything similar in other parts of the book where I didn't notice it. Well, and I think stuff like that shouldn't happen in a quite expensive book which is also supposed to be used by students and undergraduates. Still, it wasn't bad and I would still recommend it – you will get a good overview about everything and the 'further reading' sections are also really good, for example.

Theresa May: The Enigmatic Prime Minister (Rosa Prince)

I absolutely dislike the Tories and if I'd live in the UK I'd most definitely never vote for them. Having said that, I'm really interested in politics as a whole – which means I also want so learn more about the more recent Prime Ministers, even if they are/were Tories. It's obviously isn't necessary to agree with a person's opinions to read something about them, right? This book is a pretty interesting political biography about Theresa May – it's mostly about her professional and less about her private life. Of course there were some parts about her childhood etc. because we obviously need to know at least something about a person to understand their political motivations. But I liked that the author clearly put the emphasis on her professional life. However, after learning more about Theresa May's motivations I sort of understand even less how someone who cares about helping people and improving their lives can be a Tory member. Well, I do get that she's pretty much a traditional conservative in other areas (as seen during her time at the Home Office, for example), but that is a thing I never quite understood. Not just about her, but also about other politicians, for that matter.

Cricket for Dummies (Julian Knight)

I started watching BBC News all the time last year, and there was one thing that made me really curious during the sports news broadcast: the cricket results. Honestly, that's pretty typical for me, I have those random bouts of curiousity all the time. And so I was intrigued enough to buy this book and start learning more about cricket. (You might laugh at me if you'll learn that my actual #1 motivation is due to the fact that my favourite comedian talks a lot about cricket on Twitter, haha.) Well, 'more'...to learn anything at all, actually. I haven't seen a single cricket match so far, but I think I really want to change that after reading this book. Mind you, I'm still not entirely sure whether I properly understood the rules, but...the author mentioned that a person either hates cricket because they find it boring and can't understand why people would sometimes even think of a drawn match as a really thrilling affair...or that that's exactly what someone loves about the game. And honestly, I think I fall into the latter group. I'm all for tactics and stuff and I imagine a tense match to be a lot of fun, even if there isn't a winner in the end. Well...the Ashes are coming up, maybe I'll find a way to watch!

Die wandernde Erde (Cixin Liu)

This isn't the first time I was reading short stories by Cixin Liu, so I already knew what to expect. (I actually even read one of the stories in this book. The German publisher surely made some extra money by releasing some stories as a seperate book, huh... Glad I bought both copies for very few money.) Anyway, I loved most of the stories and novellas. It's not like I actually get what the author and his characters are talking about when they are explaining difficult quantum physics stuff etc. - but that doesn't diminish my enjoyment in the slightest and it's also quite educational. And in some cases also pretty thought-provoking, because the author also mentions issues like humans destroying the environment and thus their own means of living without getting overly preachy about it. Well, actually it wouldn't hurt to preach about the issue as it's so important, but...eh. In any case, I tremendously enjoyed this collection and now I'll finally take a look at his most famous book trilogy 'Three Body Problem'. (I think that is the English title? Not entirely sure, as I still buy his books in the German edition since the English one isn't the original version after all.)

James Bond 007: Liebesgrüße aus Moskau (Ian Fleming)

Oh god, the sexism and racism. Frankly, even though I am able to give an author the benefit of the doubt and will also acknowledge that the Bond novels are a product of an entirely different time. But still, the passages about 'woman wanting to get beaten' and how evil Turks are etc....ew. And the thing is, it's not like this stuff makes the book in any form better. Quite the contrary actually, I couldn't care less about Kerim's lenghty rant about dumb women and evil Turks. So well, I was pretty bored throughout huge parts of the book. BUT! Sometimes the action suddenly does pick up the pace, and the book was a delight to read when it finally did. The final few chapters for example – more of that, please. (Though I think it was a bit dumb of Bond to trust the other MI6 agent just like that. Would the MI6 really not notice if one of their agents was borderline insane? I don't think so.) I'd say it's a bit of a shame, all that sexist and racist stuff. I think I'll still read at least a few more Bond books, if I feel up to the task of ignoring the less entertaining parts of it...

A Man With One Of Those Faces (Caimh McDonnell)

I mostly bought and read this book because it got recommended to me on Tumblr, and also because I heard that Chris Addison is working on a TV show adaption of the trilogy. I'm really glad he does, because that was the final push of motivation I needed to finally buy, er, all books in the series, haha. Just mention his name and I would watch/read about anything. (Guess which comedian I was talking about in the part about the cricket book?) Er, well. Putting that aside (one day I will write a post about my Britcom obsession and all that, I promise), I really loved this book A LOT. These days I rarely ever get curious enough about a book's story to keep me guessing about what could happen next. Or wanting to pick up the book again and just read a few cheeky pages when I'm really supposed to do something else. Well, that's what this book did for me. It took me a while until I got into it, but then...I just wanted to find out what's going on. And I got to love all the characters, too! It's not just the main cast, but you just gotta like them all. I'm especially fond of Detective Wilson and Phil, I think? Anyway – there's no need to regret my purchase of all the books, because I definitely want to read them all. I would have read them already to be entirely honest, but...I think I keep them for special occasions. There are just not enough books which could get me out of the biggest reading slumps (so far only Sherlock Holmes and Jeeves & Wooster managed just that) and I feel those ones could be among them.

The Westminster Alice / The Unbearable Bassington (Saki)

I only stumbled across those two works and the author Saki in general because of the Guardian's 1000 books list. I mentioned that before, didn't I? Well, and while going through the books on that list I noticed that both works are really quite short, so I decided to read them right away. The Westminster Alice is a really funny little parody on the political events in England during the time of writing in the style of Alice in Wonderland. While I do have some knowledge about British history, I was still glad that I found extensive explanations about some of the characters and puns. A really delightful read in any case! The Unbearable Bassington is a bit longer than Alice and even better, if you ask me. It started off as a pretty funny and witty little story (I got reminded of PG Wodehouse or Oscar Wilde, for example) and it ended with a surprisingly sad ending. Seriously, it wasn't even that dramatic, but the last sentence alone made me feel all kinds of things. Really, really great. Well, I definitely need to read more stories by Saki now. Apparently he wrote quite a few of those witty little things, so that's something to look forward to!

Monthly reads: October 2021

 

First monthly reads post on the new blog, yeah! I used to post those ones on my anime blog, but from now on I'll be putting them here. Anyway, October was a pretty good reading month - I tried to read some slightly spooky things in the run-up for Halloween and enjoyed most of them! (By the way, the books not shown on the photo are ebooks as I obviously couldn't take a picture of those.

Hannibal Rising (Thomas Harris)

First off, I haven't watched the classic Hannibal movies or read any book of the original trilogy yet. However, I have at least watched the Hannibal TV series, and that's why I started being interested in the books, too. (Fun fact: I watched the TV series last October, but I never mentioned it to anyone in real life...days later my mum suddenly gave me this book and told me she bought it because it might interest me. Quite scary, that. Even more so because my mum wouldn't normally buy me a book about a serial killer even if I would politely ask her to. Which made me seriouly wonder if she reads my blog.) So, this is a prequel story about how Hannibal Lecter became the person (and cannibal) we know. I actually liked reading this origin story. I don't know whether someone who already read the other books would think differently – actually, I do know from some reviews I saw: they do – but from my point of view the story made sense. People might say that giving Hannibal a sympathetic backstory takes something away from the fascination of the character. Maybe they are right, but I still wouldn't necessarily agree. Sure, if it were a sappy story about how a entirely normal little boy turned into a cruel killer because of some traumatic event from his past...no, that really doesn't sound like Hannibal Lecter at all. But I got something different from the story: how a boy with a brilliant mind descends into darkness instead of stepping into the light and being recognised as a genius on the field of medicine, for example. (I'm aware that sounded a bit melodramatic. But that actually sort of fits the subject, I think!) I did enjoy reading about that, and it made me look forward to watching (or reading) the original trilogy one day.

Die Chronik der Unsterblichen 1: Am Abgrund (Wolfgang Hohlbein)

I usually enjoy Wolfgang Hohlbein's books. He's not one of my absolute favourite author, but his stories are usually really thrilling and just the right kind of book to read if I want to take my mind off real life. And once again, I wasn't disappointed. This book is the first volume in a long-running historical fantasy series, which is the reason why it mostly served as a prologue for a longer story and introduced a cast of characters we will probably meet again later on. Also, I did recognise some tropes from the author's other books – for example, the relationship between Andrej and Frederic reminded me a lot of a similar dynamic between two characters from his book 'Thor'. Still, it was already plenty entertaining and I'm curious about where the story will lead the main character and also us readers.

Seventy Two Virgins (Boris Johnson)

Oh my. That was...bad. And to make two things entirely clear from the beginning: no, I don't like Boris Johnson and no, I didn't expect this to be any good – quite the contrary, actually. And yet I still got disappointed. I thought there might still be some fun to be had in reading this book, in a sort of 'ha-ha, I can't believe the guy who wrote this shit got elected as PM of the United Kingdom' way. If that makes any sense. What definitely didn't make any sense was the book. I don't know, but the people who compared this to the writings of P.G. Wodehouse might have been drunk, because...this book was neither funny nor witty while the Wodehouse books are definitely both funny and witty. And yes, I tried to forget who wrote this. It was still bad. I have to add that I think I even got what he wanted to do with the plot: lots of seperate plotlines which converge at a certain highlight point of the entire thing, where everything gets resolved and one of all those losers turns out to be a hero. Or something like that. Just that it didn't work. I didn't care about those people at all, and not even lenghty explanations about their past and motivations could change this. Seriously, it was so obvious how he tried to paint the British member of the terror gang as basically just a poor guy who got mislead by the evil Arabs – while also heaping on him because he was also some antisocial deadbeat who basically just wasted taxpayers money through his sheer existence. Add some more extra casual racism and sexism plus some semi-funny puns on every second page and well, now that sounds the BJ we all know and love. Or hate. Or love to hate. I really don't know anymore. Nevertheless, I would still say reading this book was at least worth something, because it made me feel better about my own writing. I mean, seeing how even bad books can get published makes me feel less anxious about whether the quality of my fanfictions is good enough. At least I don't charge money for those, even if they aren't exactly literature!

Britty Britty Bang Bang (Hugh Dennis)

A while ago I bought a few books written by British comedians, partially because I just really like the author or also because some nice people on Tumblr responded with lots of recommendations when I asked them for Britcom-related books. This one here fits in the former category because Hugh Dennis is one of my favourite panelists from both Mock the Week and Taskmaster. And I was even pleasantly surprised by the book, because I also learned some new things about Britain while having fun reading an entertaining book. That's just how I like it!

Carmilla (J. Sheridan Le Fanu)

I initially downloaded this short novel because one reviewer called it the superior vampire story when compared to Dracula. And I couldn't really believe that, because...well, everyone knows Dracula, but Carmilla? Not so much. (I knew her from the smartphone game Fate/Grand Order. Yes, being a fan of anime and games does have some benefits!) However, having read both stories I have to say....I entirely agree with that reviewer! I just really enjoyed Carmilla, and I can't believe that this story is actually even older than Dracula because it felt so...fresh? Modern? I can't really put it in words, I think. I mean, a story about a lesbian vampire preying on young girls? That sounds like something straight from some of today's B-movie horror flicks! However, there obviously isn't anything even remotely similar to a sex scene in the novel (well, I'm aware that a vampire's bite is basically a metaphor for a sexual act, but I think you get my meaning) and so this isn't a cheap horror thrill, but a really interesting and at times chilling and thrilling read. The only thing I liked not as much was the ending because it felt somewhat rushed and almost made me lose interest. But that didn't ruin my overall enjoyment of the story and I would still absolutely recommend it to anyone who would be interested in reading a classic vampire story.

Dracula (Bram Stoker)

I already mentioned Dracula, so...well, you already know that it's not my favourite classic vampire novel. Don't get me wrong, there were things I greatly enjoyed about it. The beginning of the story and the first part set in Dracula's castle were just great and I was curious to see what would happened next. Also, the parts about Renfield's strange obsessions and also Lucy's story were intriguing. However, everything felt just way too lenghty. Sometimes nothing meaningful happened for many pages and especially the middle part after Lucys death felt somehow dreadful – not because of Dracula's doing, mind you. The ending part turned out to be more interesting, but I don't think I'll ever feel the need to re-read this story, if I'm entirely honest. And I think it is worth mentioning that I haven't watched any film adaption of Dracula before reading the book. So I guess fans of the various adaptions might not like the actual book at all. Still, it was interesting to read about the origins of one of the most famous literary and pop-cultural figures of all time.

Frankenstein (Mary Shelley)

Everyone knows Frankenstein's Monster, and many people actually confuse the creator (=Frankenstein) with his creation (=the Monster). Then again, are they really wrong about thinking that this is a story about a monster called Frankenstein? Because I for one absolutely came to loathe the guy during the course of the book. I mean, creating a initially gentle yet ugly 'monster' just to suddenly realise that he possibly did a bad thing and thus leaving the monster entirely to its own devices – only to revile his creation at their next meeting which happened many months later. Still, the monster doesn't even assault him like the proper ugly evil bastard it's supposed to be (if he's ugly, then he has to be evil, right?) and tries to explain his motivations and the way it lived to far. Well, at least then our dashing hero sort of begrudgingly pretends to understand the monster's plea and agrees to make a companion for him. (Not without lots of whining though because he feels so bad about it! Seriously, I've never seen a more whiny protagonist.) After another meeting with the monster he suddenly decides to say 'fuck it, I'm not gonna do this' instead and is subsequently really shocked that the monster exacts his revenge against his creator. The rest of the book was almost funny to me, to be honest. The wedding night scene almost made me laugh: 'I fear that my wife might be in danger, so I'll just waltz around our house and leave her entirely unprotected in our bedroom!', just to be really surprised and shocked to find her dead when he came back. I'm sorry, but that was funny. Then more whining ensued, before he finally decided to man up a bit and chase his nemesis literally to the ends of the world: the Arctic. That also where he tells his sob story to the captain of a ship who rescued him – and the poor captain basically seems to fall in love with his new acquantance, judging from the way he talked about him. I just love how Frankenstein repeatedly claimed that the monster possessed huge powers of persuasion and no one should believe it when it talks about its sad story. I think he mixed up things there: actually he was the slimy smooth-talker himself, because he was so persuasive that he basically calmed down a bunch of mutinous sailors in mere minutes. The monster on the other hand never got a fair chance to persuade anyone because of how ugly it was. So that's that, I'd say.

Anyway, I guess this whole rant sounded a lot like I didn't like the book. And that's not true, I actually liked it quite a bit. Maybe because I sympathised with the monster in some way. Even though I'm obviously not a artificially created giant person (I promise), I know how it feels like to be judged based on wrong first impressions, always being the odd one out and thus starting to feel a certain kind of resentment towards other people. And I don't think I'm the only person who can. Frankenstein, on the other hand...well, I rarely ever hated a book protagonist as much as I hated him. Which is an achievement in itself, I think! But the douchebag still didn't ruin my enjoyment of the book, so...that definitely was a classic worth reading, even though I fear that I lack the deeper understanding of literature to properly analyse all the themes used in the novel.

Doctor Who: The Crimson Horror (Mark Gatiss)

A pretty enjoyable novelisation of a pretty enjoyable episode, I'd say. Sure, the plot was pretty crazy and sometimes a bit over the top, but I liked the Victorian setting a lot and the story had just the right amount of craziness I enjoy about a Doctor Who story. The latest stories in the TV series are sometimes a bit over the top for my tastes, I have to say. But well, there's always the possibility of rewatches or revisiting favourite stories via the novelisations!

Thank you, Jeeves (P.G. Wodehouse)

I read a collection of all Jeeves and Wooster short stories at the beginning of this year, so it's quite odd that it still took me this long to actually finish this first novel about their hilarious adventures. Well, maybe because I'm determined to save up the Wodehouse novels as a cure-all measure for bad reading slumps. The short stories were basically the only thing I could still read when I faced my worst ever reading slump, and I'll be eternally grateful for that. I think I maybe liked the short stories a little bit more than this full-length adventure, but it was still really, well...the bee's knees would a fitting expression! It's not like I had any real doubts, but I'll definitely go on reading the entire series now. And I'll also want to take a look at PG Wodehouse's other books – good thing that there are so many of them!

A Case of Blackmail in Belgravia (Clara Benson)

I only read this because I could download the ebook version for free, but I actually enjoyed it a lot! I'm just really weak for stories set tin 1920s/1930s England, whether it's a crime novel, a comedy story or really anything. This one falls in the first category and while it wasn't exactly one of Agatha Christie's books it was still highly enjoyable. I might buy the next volumes in the series too, if I ever feel the need for some light fun reading because that's exactly what I got from this novel!

The woes of being an ace reader

Kind of a stupid title, I know. Sounds like I want to brag with my great reading skills, haha.

I'm not sure whether that's exactly the thing someone would expect to read on a book/media blog, but...apparently it's Ace Week/Asexual Awareness Week right now. And since I'm sort of part of that spectrum too, I'd like to write down some mostly incoherent thoughts regarding my own experiences with sexuality/romance in connection with fictional stories. (I say sort of because I haven't entirely figured out where I actually stand - I thought of myself as straight for most of my life and I'm still in the process of finding out the actual truth. Then again, finding yourself is a never-ending process anyway, isn't it?)

Er, well. Where to start? Well, I was never overly fond of love stories. Sure, there are a huge part of every kind of media (and I don't mind the occasional romance side-plot), but I rarely ever felt the need to read a story mostly about two people falling in love. Or rather, never. That doesn't mean I haven't tried. But even though I did enjoy some romance-themed books, it was never the actual love thing which intrigued me. I mainly read some light historical romances and it was always either the setting or the humour that made them feel like a worthwhile read. Okay, seeing how the characters slowly fall in love can be intriguing, but I don't really care about what happens afterwards!

Oddly enough, I always kind of enjoyed watching fanservice-heavy anime and I also didn't shy away from erotic content in novels. Though once again, it was mostly for different reasons than one would expect. The fanservice anime were usually pretty funny and I sort of liked the aesthetics of busty anime girls - in an entirely non-sexual context, though. I did watch and read a fair share of e.g. boys/girls love, ecchi and sometimes even hentai stuff back in the say, I have to admit that. And the novels...I mostly enjoyed either the historical setting, or in some other cases, the urban fantasy part of it. Though I have almost entirely grown out of reading those, because they are mostly supposed to be read for the love and sex part. And well, if I don't care about that, I might as well look elsewhere for my occasional fix of vampire and werewolf stories, I guess?

I'm still writing fanfiction about some my favourite ships though. I didn't go into truly erotic territory yet, but I'm determined to at least try at some point.  But that's ultimately just a fantasy too, like the content I'm consuming. So...I'm fine with that. It's not like I mind erotic content, it's just that it doesn't really give me what it might give to other people? And having a 'normal' relationship (including sex and everything) is something I can't really imagine for myself, so...it feels like yet another trope from a fictional story for me. And so it's not something special, not something I can or want to connect to on a deeper emotional level. It's basically really just one of many tropes, and not necessarily my most favourite one. 

Another thing that made me realise that I might perceive romance in a different way than others was when I read Persuasion by Jane Austen. And contrary to apparently 95% of all other readers, I absolutely didn't find the story romantic or sweet in any way. When someone doesn't like the book, they are usually told that they aren't old enough yet to truly understand the love story between the heroine and her returning lover. Well, I was 28 when I read the book - would that be old enough for a proper understanding? I don't know. And maybe it just wasn't my kind of book, but I just absolutely couldn't see what was so romantic about a young woman not taking a chance to flee from her life of suppression. Sure, she got her second chance, but I didn't feel with the couple at all. Why would I care about them finally getting together if their love was so shallow in the first place? I'm not sure whether anyone will even read this post, but a thing I am sure about is that most of the reader probably have a deeper understanding of the book. But lacking that, I can just judge from how I felt about it. Or maybe rather that I didn't feel anything about it. So, what is it now: am I really just too immature to get their love? Or is there just a difference in perception and that's the reason why I am unable to connect to the characters on an emotional level? Don't get me wrong, I get why the story would appeal to many people on a logical level, but I still can't feel that appeal myself. (Oh, and I think I should add that I read Northanger Abbey and half of Sense and Sensibility and enjoyed both, especially the former one. So it's not that I dislike Jane Austen's stories in general.)

Well. So far, so good. It took me years until I - it was probably on social media - first heard about asexual and aromantic people. When I read more and more about it, I started to think about how all of this actually sounded a lot like my own experience. Romance never played a big part in my life. Even back during my school days I never got why everyone seemed to be forever after finding their next boyfriend/girlfriend after a break up. And I still don't get it until now. But maybe I wasn't just a late bloomer, or maybe I had not written off ever having a relationship just because I'm unattractive? By now I'm pretty sure that I don't feel much sexual attraction - if any at all. Which doesn't mean that I don't think of some people as really beautiful, or that I'm not attracted to them in any way. It does lack the sexual context though.

You know what does sum up my relationship with attraction really well, actually? It's probably a pretty bad comparison, but I mean this here:

 


The fact that Nero from Fate/Extra is one of my favourite characters ever makes this even better, but even putting that aside the part about loving beautiful people just speaks to me. I'm aware it is most likely meant in a sexual context here as Nero is usually considered bisexual (both the character and also the historical figure, as far as I know), but I feel this line in an entirely non-sexual way. I felt physical/aesthetic and also emotional attraction to many people of various genders before. I just don't want to kiss or have sex with them, or really anything in that direction. I also sometimes feel romantic attraction, but that happens exclusively towards men.

I'm still not entirely sure about anything. I don't know if I just don't care about relationships and sex and all that as much as any other random person does, or if I'm entirely unable to ever understand 'normal' relationships. I'm also aware that every kind of person of any gender, sexuality and/or romantic orientation might also dislike romance in fiction. And I'm actually curious what their reasons would look like! But I for one think that for me personally it is about the asexuality thing. Like I said, love, sex and relationship aren't something I relate with very much, so...it's not something I actively look for in a story. Even if I also don't mind content like that!

Having said all that, I personally don't even look for representation of ace/aro people and relationships in the media. I heard that there are some (most likely YA) books with such protagonists, but it usually isn't a reason big enough for me to read those books. (Having said that, I recently heard that a manga with an ace protagonist got announced for an English release and I am curious about this one!) But even if I might not be reading them, I still think it is a good thing that such books exist. Being represented in the media and in fictional stories is a good way to make people feel valid, which is always an important thing. I mean, it's a fact that we are living in an amatonormative society which makes it hard for anyone to be confident about not wanting a romantic relationship, for example. That's not even just a problem for ace/aro people, but they are probably more likely to be confronted with the issue. So there's still a lot of work to do and normalising any kind of platonic and non-romantic relationships would be a really important step to get there.

And to get a bit too needlessly personal in the end of this rant: Maybe all of this sounded like I'm totally fine, but... Frankly, I'm not happy with how things are. Like, I guess there's no way around the feeling that I'm just not 'normal' in that aspect, so I might as well own up to it and accept the facts, but...it's quite annoying, sitting between the chairs like that. Straight people usually seem to tell ace people that they 'just didn't find the right person yet', and people in LGBT spaces often aren't too happy about aces (especially heteroromantic ones) invading those spaces, as they are basically seen as straight people without a sex drive. I absolutely get why they might feel uncomfortable, but I still think bonding over shared experiences of having to face prejudices etc should be possible? Well, I might be wrong. Anyway, all of this can be quite discouraging. I personally had to deal with the feeling of just 'not being enough' and not being able to fulfill everyone's expectations through my entire life, and me being unable to have a normal relationship is just another part of it. So no, I'm not fine at all, actually. I basically had someone tell me that I didn't need to be surprised about people staying away from me if I wasn't open for a normal relationship. I had people tell me that I'm unable to love and thus weird, and stuff like that. I still don't think there is something wrong with being asexual (and/or aromantic), and I sincerely hope that other people can embrace that identity and maybe even be proud of who they are! As of yet I just can't do the same, and who knows if I ever will. I couldn't say. (Well, now I have ended that post on a pretty depressing note without even intending to do so. But yeah, like I said, it was mostly a rant anyway. Sorry.)